Close eyes Breathe deeply Relax your neck, shoulders, arms, legs… Ask the question: Why do I want to pull out that hair? Its been six months since I shaved my head, and I find myself becoming more and more aware of the physical need to pull my hair out. When I go too long between … read more
After quickly walking through the freezing drizzle and wind, I stop for a moment to smooth my wig. I turn to my sweet husband of twenty-six and a half years and innocently ask, “Do I look crazy?” His response, “Wellllll. Your hair looks fine.” And that is why I love him. He can poke fun … read more
For the past few weeks I’ve dreamed several times about my teeth falling out, and I wondered as to the meaning of such a recurrent dream. If only there was a place I could type a question and get thousands of links to answers of said query. According to the all-knowing Google, and multiple sites … read more
In the shadow of the low hanging branches, listening to the crunch of a thousand tiny stones under my feet, I feel Him move around me, inside me, throughout my body, mind and spirit. God meets me there, every time, in the cathedral He spoke into existence. There are so many ways God is “found.” … read more
In my attempt to overcome trichotillomania, I have been seeking to identify stressors in my life and eliminate them. For the past two-plus years I have worked a job that could most succinctly be described as grueling. (There are a lot of other words to describe it, but I’ll keep this P.G.) My coworkers and … read more
After two years of planning, preparing, and procrastinating, the day had arrived to follow through with my terrifying intentions. As always, my trusted friend and artist extraordinaire, Marsha Foster, was at my side, snapping away, asking the hard questions and recording my emotional responses. To a certain extent, it felt as though I was behind … read more
I am forty-eight years old, and I have an invisible friend. Its not that other people can’t see her. They simply don’t. Hard as I try, I simply cannot understand this phenomenon; how someone so amazing can go so unnoticed, and she finds herself among a multitude of other incredible, yet invisible, women. My friend … read more
In very simple terms, because I need as many one syllable words as possible to understand science-y stuff, here’s how the brain forms neural pathways. (I borrowed all of this information from the link below, because they did such an amazing job of putting this in terms even my non-math/science brain was able to understand.) … read more
I’d all but given up hope on ever overcoming trichotillomania, but as I listened to that man talk about neural pathways and porn, I knew I’d discovered a piece of the puzzle. Rick and I were mentors in a premarital counseling group. We, along with other long-time married folks, were paired up with soon-to-be wed … read more
What does self-love have to do with marriage? Isn’t it the exact opposite of what marriage is all about? Twenty-six years ago, I said, “I promise” to a lot of things, and I thought I meant every word of it. The problem is, I promised to love, honor and obey (yes, I said that word…gasp!) … read more