I had to make an impossible decision, and I had no idea how to even begin. My entire life had been dictated by the actions of others. When I was a child, I was forced to accept the unwanted touch of others, told how to feel about it,  and then threatened into silence. When I … read more

“Your mommy is doing great.  She’s trying so hard,” the well-dressed “sister” told my newborn son as she held him in front of me. I think that might have been the exact moment a deep ache in my soul, held at bay for so long by food, drugs, alcohol and sex, began to work its … read more

Lamaze is amazing for difficult dentist appointments or preventing yourself from punching that arrogant jerk who just won’t get out of your face (in the check out line, not the dentist!), but when you find yourself  coming out of an eclamptic seizure in the throws of pitocin-induced contractions, its about as effective as my birth control … read more