Enough

What doesn’t kill you… Sometimes I want to scream at God, “I’m strong enough, already!” I have grown so weary of evil. There is no part of this world that it hasn’t touched.  No safe place exists where it cannot reach. Evil, darkness, pain and suffering inhabit every corner, every nuance of my conscious life, … read more

Is it Mine or is it Me?

Does my past define me? This question has been haunting my thoughts of late, and it began when I saw the images from one of my photo shoots with Marsha Lane Foster. The process for these therapeutic photo shoots varies a bit.  Sometimes I write a piece, and Marsha and I brainstorm over images that convey … read more

The Conversation

  “It is an absolute human certainty that no one can know his own beauty or perceive a sense of his own worth until it has been reflected back to him in the mirror of another loving, caring human being.” ― John Joseph Powell, The Secret of Staying in Love  

Second Hand Hate

I have endured several…I’ll just call them “debates” about whether or not you can love others if you don’t love yourself, and I’ve heard  people make some pretty ridiculous arguments in support of  both sides of this question.  I have spent countless hours listening to messages and reading books about the wretched status of the human … read more

An Accidental Love Story

“If you could have seen the future, would you have married me?”   I can’t count how many times I’ve asked my husband this question.  His response is always the same.  He rolls his eyes, draws me close and says, “Probably not.”  Then I rest on his chest and listen to the familiar rumble of … read more

My Check Engine Light

Many people have commented that my willingness to publicly share this struggle to stop pulling out my hair is brave; however, I feel anything but.  I am scared to death of failing…again. I’m afraid of replacing the TTM with some other impulse control disorder even-weirder than this one.  And really, to be gut-wrenchingly honest, I’m terrified of not … read more